It was late evening as I sat down on my sofa but what program I had on Netflix I truly cannot remember. Every time I tried to switch off my mind would go back to overthinking the decision I needed to make at work. I would pick up my phone thinking 'If I just do that quick thing I can tick it off the to-do list and then I will be able to switch off without the guilt'.
Never worked. There was always 'one more thing' until I would just collapse from exhaustion.
I had tried the traditional methods of buying a planner, writing to-do lists in different ways and pushing through but honestly the immediate list for my attention just never seemed to stop.
I was wired but tired and enough was enough.
Then it hit me. I suddenly felt calm. The decision was made. If I wanted to be able to switch off I needed to put myself first. My life could not be all about work any more and what everybody else needed.
I invested in coaches and began to study the mind and body implementing everything that I learnt on myself to see if I could stop my mind racing. Step by step Balance was created and I can finally switch off - without the guilt.